We shall not cease from exploration, and the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time.
--T. S. Eliot
--T. S. Eliot
These words have come to mind at many junctures in my life—and now they seem especially pertinent and poignant. During our last few days in Europe, we became conscious of “closing the loop,” returning to what we’d seen or experienced before either to reinforce an impression or evoke a new perspective.

Returning geographically was necessary and obvious. We had to fly back to London for one more day in order to catch our flight out of Heathrow. Abby wanted to re-visit the highlights of central London in an effort to delay preparing for our departure. Lily wanted me to go back to the corner grocery shop to buy croissants for our final morning—she and I had been treated to croissants from the same shop on our very first morning in London. Indeed, we were coming back to our landlord’s house where our luggage was stored and to meet for the second time, his former graduate student, Mansour, who had so kindly waited up until midnight for Lily and me when our flight arrival was delayed.
As twilight approached around 3:30 pm (what people in Devon call “dimsey” I recently learned), we decided to walk over to Hampstead Heath, where the girls and I had rambled three weeks earlier to see the swimming ponds (they are open all year!) and find a “mirador,” or viewpoint from a hill, to look out over the city. Londoners were out in large family groups enjoying the last minutes of daylight, racing around on bicycles and putting away fishing gear. We joined them as we sauntered up a grassy slope to reach a perfect vista looking south to the center of the city in the distance. The girls were down there somewhere, breathlessly running across the Millenium Bridge or dashing off to Convent Garden. We could see the Gerkin Tower and the unfinished Shard Skyscraper with St. Paul’s outlined very clearly in front of it; the London Eye was off the right, quite faint but still visible in the twinkle of lights just coming on like a haze of summer fireflies.
For now, until familiarity returns, we see our California home in a different light. Opening the front door to our house and stepping inside we felt foreign; our eyesight had changed and all the angles and colors in the rooms looked different. It will take a while to re-settle I’m sure, and we’ll probably bore everyone with our comparisons between European and American culture, but I hope we’ll follow T. S. Eliot’s prediction or benediction and ultimately better understand and appreciate our lives here as a result of our explorations.
Beth